A follow up email regarding the boys!

Click to play | Make your own Smilebox I wanted to give an update on our extended family! It has been almost a month now, that we have gone from a family of 5 (sometimes 6), to a family of 8! It has been an amazing, powerful, emotional experience. Nathan, Tyler, the girls and I have effortlessly found a place in our hearts for these two special little guys. Cage and Hunter are doing great. They listen, are well behaved, well mannered, and getting used to spending the night here. There is definitely a routine we have established which is obviously necessary with a household of our size. Long story short, this weekend we were uncertain if we would lose the boys. CPS has been contacted and there is alot weighing on the boys father to make some major life changes. It is difficult and frustrating at times to deal with a man who holds these boys future in his hands, and his inability to think like the rest of us. I don't mean for that to offend, sound judgmental, or anything like that. For those of you who know me, you know I am a very open minded, accepting person. I know not everyone has the same life experience, and cant be expected to have the same values, wants and desires. Yet, being a Mom.....it makes my heart ache to think of these innocent children, who never asked to be born, getting placed into some sort of "program". They are so exceptional. They are so kind. So loving.....and all they ask in return is to have a safe and stable environment (that every child deserves!). So, we continue to practice patience and understanding, and personally, I have been praying day and night. I pray for the boys, my family, for patience and understanding when dealing with their father...I just pray he is able to step up and be the man he is required to be in order to escape his precious boys from going into foster care. This past weekend, I felt torn between helping the boys because I love them so deeply, but not wanting to enable someone who appears to not be the most responsible person. Running a daycare and taking on these two extra full time children is easy believe it or not. At this point, I feel lost if I don't have a row of children following behind me! Yet, Nathan and I know we cant do this forever, especially if their Father isn't holding up his end of the deal. So, what I am asking from all of you is to pray, think positive thoughts, send some love out into the universe, whatever method you use to find peace, support, and encouragement and just keep all of us, the boys, their Dad in your hearts and (if you believe) prayers!