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Pretty, Smart, Talented, & a Soccer Star

Make a Smilebox scrapbook Hey everyone....just thought I would send this out to you.....you all know I am a proud Mommy! Bella scored a goal! Actually, a few....but who is counting! No, I am seriously shocked and very excited for her....especially since we spent the afternoon at the doctors and she had to have several allergy skin tests done. Still allergic to peanuts and many other things :-( Poor thing.....but she can play ball!

Kindergarten

Make a Smilebox scrapbook Well....it is official! Bella is in Kindergarten right now as I type this email! She said she was a little scared, a little nervous, but also excited. Thankfully, her teacher was a pro and grabbed her as soon as she saw her and took her into class....she didn't even look back! I was a total emotional freak last night. I just love my babies so much and I am so excited to see them reach all their milestones.....and as a parent, I know one of the most important things I can do for my children is to teach them to be equipped and confident enough to be able to venture out on their own.....this is the beginning of Bella's school life....she is on her way......and I am so excited, so proud....and just a wee bit overly emotional......a new beginning for her, marks a bit of an end as well....she is growing up....and I am so happy, I cant stop crying! Only a parent knows happy tears like these! Some of you may be thinking, "it is only Kindergarten", but I honestly think that pretty much all we ever need to know, we learn there...not academically, but socially.....we are basically taught to be kind, to share, to have respect, how to honor ourselves & others, we are taught to take pride & ownership of our gifts & talents, we learn self confidence, etc. You know....all the stuff that builds character and strengthens our integrity.......I don't care what my kids end up doing in life, as long as they are happy, healthy, and not hurting others. I just hope, pray and try my best to be the best Mommy....best Auntie.....best daycare provider for all of these precious little babies that spend time in our lives.

I have been thinking....

how much I love my family. I cant get over how amazing each child is. Tyler, is the most polite, kind, thoughtful, young man. He is so smart. So sweet. Such a wonderful big brother. My girls are so lucky, to have someone like him, be their big brother. He plays with them without being asked. He listens to what they say. He remembers little things about each of their personalities.....he really loves them and looks after them.
Then there is Bella. She is so beautiful. Sometimes, I just watch her and the way her hair falls down in her face. Her eyes make my eyes, fill with tears. She is so smart. She is so sensitive. She is so curious. She is strong willed, independent, yet shy. She loves our family so much. She loves her Daddy. She is a very thoughtful, natural big sister. She protects them and explains what they want and need. I try not to take advantage of the fact that she is helpful. Sometimes, I have to remind myself that she is only 5. Often, she seems more like a little adult, here to help me run my daycare. She is fair. She is honest. She is a dreamer.
Then there is Violet. My goodness, Ms. Violet! She is gorgeous! Her dark, shiny hair.....her deep dark, big eyes. She too....melts my heart. Violet has always been slower at doing things, in comparison to Tyler and Bella. But, once she is ready for something....she has no fear. She used to seem shy, but is more outgoing than her two older siblings. She is social. She is happy. She is silly. She is full of spunk! She is a bit challenging at times right now. As she tests the boundaries, and then once she knows them, tries to push for more....but, she is fun to watch. She is so sassy. She makes total idle threats. "I am never going to play with you ever again"! She is such a middle sibling. She likes being bigger, but still craves the attention of being a baby. She is truly both. She is a big girl, who uses the potty....but who sucks her thumb and wants to cuddle in bed with me every night.
Last, but not least....is Layla Rose! She is just a tiny little person, full of big love! She is just a little star! She is so smart. She is just one of the kids, in her mind. It doesn't matter to her, that she isn't even 2, she will hang out with her big brother and sister, and laugh at everything they do and say.....and never let on, that she probably has no clue what is really going on! She loves to eat. She loves to dance. She LOVES to sing! She is our baby, yet she is very independent. She may or may not give you a kiss. She often wont look at you when you speak to her, but the smile on her face is indication enough that she does indeed hear you. She loves going places. She is love, happiness, and free....and is as pretty as a doll!

The reason I am writing this today is, I hate to admit....I already forget things. I forget when all the firsts were. I cant possibly remember every single amazing thing they all do or say. But, even though I have a bad memory, (or bad "memories" as Bella puts it!), nothing that has happened in my life with my children is lost forever. It is with me. It is very much a part of my heart and soul.
Nothing prepares you for motherhood. No matter how much we love our parents, our siblings, our family and friends. The greatness of the love I feel for my children...is not a word known....only something that can be experienced, never adequately described.
Which leads me to Nathan. It is in my nature to take things for granted. I am not romantic. I don't feel comfortable being nice all the time...it takes a lot of effort. With the kids, I am the most gentle I can be. With Nathan, family and friends, I am much more at peace and much more myself by being a smart ass. With that being said, I have to admit I am so thankful for Nathan. He is such a good man. Even though he smokes, and has crap all over my garage, I love him. He is totally cool to me. He gives me space. He doesn't guilt trip me. I can tell him anything and everything. He accepts me the way I am. Which means he has the ability to over look all my shortcomings. My fat, my body hair, my bad breath, etc. He has never looked at me with anything other than love. And then he always says the nicest things. If anyone compliments our children, he is the first to say it is because of me. When someone sees our house, he explains how I made it a home. Even last night, he told me without being mushy....and not because he did something wrong, that there is nothing that would ever compromise our union. That the possibility doesn't even exist. We are together, forever. And it was so heartwarming to have him say that so matter fact. I don't know....I guess, I am just saying I am lucky. I know nothing is perfect. I don't expect or want things to be. The way things are....in our little family unit...is exactly what I need!

Summertime, and the living is easy

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